As another day unfolds...

The Light of our life!

As another day unfolds...

I sip my coffee 

and try to wrap my head around what life has handed us.  

And to my dismay...once again...

It isn't great!

My husband works in Construction...or should I say, he did.  And once again we are experiencing another layoff!  Which has become pretty norm...but...Things are different now.  You tend to worry a little more when you have a 19 month old beautiful boy that you need to care for. 

So...you may ask why continue to work in construction.  Well, I guess to bring understanding to it all...we can back track a little bit.  My husband went to school to study architecture....boy met girl, boy feel in love, yada...yada...yada, and girl gets pregnant.  Well, long story short my Husband has a 9 year old boy.  The mother moved away when she was pregnant & that whole road has been bumpy since she walked out and decided to raise their child on her own...well with her parents that is, instead of with my husband.  It is one of those things that is bittersweet to me...because he never would have met me if he didn't walk the path he did after the birth of his first son, but it breaks my heart that he isn't a bigger part of his son's life.  So, what happened next....Dave dropped out of school to work a full-time job to pay for child support.  And where do you think he landed...In Construction.

Fast forward to 6 years later...he was a Field Engineer and I was a Construction Coordinator on the same job site.  Get this...I was his boss....and little did he know I would become his boss for life!  There are some great stories about how we met an life in the construction world...but I will have to save it for another blog.  Things did move quickly with us...engaged in 6 months, found out we were pregnant (or little engagement surprise) at about a year, 21 months later a beautiful baby boy, & two years later the most beautiful day of our lives, Our Wedding day.  Phew!  I know!  Oh, and did I mention that at 7 months pregnant I was laid off and that is when my husband asked me if I wanted to be a stay at home mom.  I was thrilled...until my husband got laid off too.  So, we are sitting there both unemployed...well minus my husbands part-time as a grill chef!  My husband is an extremely hard working man!  He does what he has to to support his family.  This panned out as they always do...my husband worked as a mason tender and grill chef...I put of resumes with not much success.  Who wants to hire a woman who is about to go into labor!  But, believe it or not...I almost did.  I was called in for a second interview...but talk about great timing...my son was born on the day I was supposed to interview.  I guess fate decided this one for me.  Those months from the birth of our son through our wedding were SO Blissful!  

And then Dave landed a killer job!  He was offered a Project Manager position for a construction company.  It was smooth sailing through that winter and next summer.  We were in awe of our growing baby boy & Dave loved his job.  He had two weeks vacation, which we spent on the beach were I grew up...but upon arrival home...you guessed it!  Laid off!  As everyone knows...the economy isn't great for building.  There was nothing more to build with the company...but we bounced right back.  He landed a job as a Framer/Carpenter.....for a while that is.

Now here we are....once again staring that old unemployment in the face.  We do have his check from his restaurant position, but Child Support takes out of that check (which give you, it isn't enough to cover the support payment)....So, our most recent surprise is that Child Support is taking the rest of the money out of his unemployment check.  Great for us huh?!  Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that is a bad thing that his first son gets money.  I just think it could be a little easier for us...but no.  Both my Husband and I are plastering our resumes on every site, sending them to every possible thing we may fit...nothing yet, put I keep on praying.  Although, at this point we have admitted that we have to give up our apartment and live with the...dahdahdaaaahhhhh...parents for the time being.  What a blow it was to my Husband to admit that...he holds his head high for supporting his family and now he just feels like a failure!  What more can you do than take him in your arms & tell him you love him more than words and that we will get through all this.  Yes, this stinks....but it is nothing we can't get though!

And on the lighter side, we have so much to be grateful for.  We have a beautiful, smart & loving boy, who no matter what mood you are in can make you smile.  We have our health and a supportive family that is willing to open their home and arms to us.  And best of all, We have Each other!  We have a love that is unmatchable!  A love that has gotten us through a lot of downs!  A love that will always be there no matter what!

I woke this morning...

lightly kisses my slumbering baby & husband.

Did the every day routine of making a pot of coffee

And

tried with all my might to wrap my head around what has played out.

But, maybe... 

this isn't something that can be understood.

It is what we do with this situation,

that makes us who we are.

Strong, Unbreakable, & Better for the Wear!